My mind, and relationships

This friday, being the 7th week in what you would call a "relationship" between me and Melissa, has made me think. Yes, I've had 2nd thoughts about this at times... but I've stuck it out, and I'm rather glad.... although, if you didnt know already my mind is a tad bit crazy. I wont go into explanation other than saying, I think I may have figured out why.


My whole "relationship life" has been something that I have not been able to trust once. Trust is something very, very hard for me to do, simply because once I think I can trust someone, I try to test the trust, and its really not there.

Every relationship I've had was a "failure" so to speak. Never really gotthe trust that I wanted just to "be there". Furthermore, I never felt things were right, simply because I wasnt doing my half of the relationship.

I think of myself as a hopeless romantic, and so I sometimes think of movie relationships as sort of an... ideal image?? Idk, but it's never really occured to me until just recently that, those characters in the movies, they trust each other... and it wasnt just like that, even in the movies, it took time, it took effort, and trust. I'm learning it. Slowly but surely.


I think things in this relationship will turn out nicely. Time will tell... and I think this time, time just may be on my side.



Until next time!